Monday, January 12, 2015
We've Reached Acceptance ...
We've discussed this many, many times. I'm not a sports fan. I will admit that I've caught on a little ... I found myself terribly disturbed this morning when, in a meeting, I was able to follow ... and actually understand ... a conversation my co-workers were having about whether or not there was a catch during last night's Cowboys/Green Bay game. Someone spoke the words, "the ground cannot cause a fumble" ... and I shuddered as I realized that I both understood and had an opinion about this statement.
But I'm getting ahead of myself ...
So last night, the Cowboys played Green Bay. Since I know little to nothing about football ... this was just another Sunday. While Stoney watched, I ran to Walgreens and Lowe's ... then ran to my house to do a little packing and cleaning.
By the time I made it back home, there wasn't much of the game left ... and Stoney was in a great mood. The Cowboys had been in the lead most of the game and, while the score was close, it looked like they would be advancing to whatever happens next in the never ending playoff season.
I was relaxing on the couch scrolling through Facebook ... glancing up now and then when Stoney reacted to the game ... when he began hooting with joy. One of the Cowboys made a play which, even with my untrained, uninterested eyes, still looked pretty impressive. But a minute or two later, they reversed the call ... which caused ... a ... response.
A response that I only imagine he would make if I were to come home from work and casually say, "Hey, honey ... when I was pulling into the garage, I rammed into the back of your car. Annnnyway, what's for dinner?"
Denial. Anger. Bargaining. Depression. I was watching the whole grief process right there in the living room.
He finally got up and began working through his frustration. He cleaned off the ceiling fans. He then cleaned out the fish tank. He then scrubbed off the glass top on the stove. I was so conflicted. I felt so bad for him ... and wanted to say something to make it better. On the other hand, we were on point to have the cleanest house in town. So ...
I've experienced a hard sporty ball loss. It wasn't the Super Bowl or the Stanley Cup or whatever the basketball equivalent of that is ... but it was still pretty heartbreaking. I'm sorry, hon ... as a Cub fan, my I offer you my sincerest, "There's always next year ..."