Well ... I got my letter today. My new reassignment location is in Olivette, Missouri ... St. Louis for all practical purposes ... and my report date is September 23rd. I have until June 21st to let them know if I agree to the transfer.
For what it's worth, they did make an attempt to keep me. They kept me in computers ... I would be the computer associate for the Heartland Region. It was the only position I really wanted. They told me months ago to expect a move away from computers to clerical work so ... this offer was a halfhearted attempt to on their part to woo me. Ironically ... that attempt to make me happy was the only thing that depressed me today.
This would be a harder decision if I had family in St. Louis ... if I had something or someone I was moving to. But as it is, I would be moving away from everything and everyone I care about. The idea of having to find a new job in October is daunting ... but the idea of walking away is too hurtful to consider.
So ... I called ARS today and got my severance figures. I have a rough idea of how things will happen. I don't have an exact time frame ... but it looks like I'll continue to work until late September when my office closes. At that point severance kicks in ... and I start looking for something in private industry. Or ... take a year off and walk the Earth. You know, like Cain in "Kung Fu" ... walk from place to place, meet people ... get into adventures.
Kidding ... I don't know Kung Fu and, no matter how much I say motherfucker, I'm not Samuel L. Jackson. I'll find a job. I just keep telling myself ... we are where we're supposed to be. I've always believed that ... so why stop now? If I save ... if I work hard ... if I'm prepared ... everything will be alright ...
Rockabye, rockabye
Everything's gonna be all right
Rockabye, rockabye
Rockabye
Shawn Mullins - Lullaby
I'm so sorry that you have to go through this.I hope everything works out for you!
ReplyDeleteThanks, Julie! It's really odd because you have this feeling as if you're alone ... as if you're the first person this has ever happened to ... when the exact opposite is true. Millions of people have been downsized out of a job ... it's just one of those things. Hopefully I'll come out better on the other side. Keeping my fingers crossed ...
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