Wednesday, April 13, 2005

What does it mean?


I've had this recurring dream for years ... and if anybody out there can give me an idea of what it might mean, I love to hear your ideas.

The details of this dream change but the core of it is always the same. I'm in a school and I've lost my class schedule. I don't know which class I'm supposed to go to or how to get there. People are walking past me ... knowing exactly where they're going ... but I'm lost. In the dream, I always think to myself, "If I could just make it to the office, they could print me out a new schedule ..." but usually it never happens.

Well, last night I had it again. This time I'm out at the college where I'm currently taking a class. In the dream, I'm going to school full time and I hear a bell ring ... kids are pouring into the halls and switching rooms ... and I feel the panic in my chest. I don't know what class is next. Where am I supposed to go?

Surprisingly, last night I actually did make it to an office ... where they printed me a new schedule ... but then I walked back out into the hall and realized I didn't know where the rooms were ... so even though they'd given me a list of what classes I was supposed to attend, I didn't know how to get there.

It was awful ... not in a nightmarish "satan is chasing me" kind of way ... but in a desperate, panic-filled way. I know I'm going to get in trouble if I don't get to class ... but I don't know where to go ... so I'm wandering down these halls.

So, I have this dream about once every three or four months ... not that often ... but often enough that I wonder just what it's trying to tell me. Anybody got any ideas? Leave a comment if you can offer me a clue ... cause, boy, I'm beat. Running up and down those halls can really wear a person out.

These dreams go on when I close my eyes
Every second of the night I live another life
These dreams that sleep when it's cold outside
Every moment I'm awake the further I'm away

Heart - These Dreams

3 comments:

  1. Anonymous6:55 PM

    www.dreammoods.com is a great site for dream interpretation. If you get the chance, check it out :)

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  2. If you get an idea of what your dream means....please send me an email and let me know. I have very similar dreams about high school. Either not knowing where I'm going or something is keeping me away from being in class. It's weird because I graduated 16 years ago and until I have a dream about high school...I don't usually think about it.

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  3. Cara ... I'm afraid I have some bad news. According to www.dreammoods.com, we're either crazy as a shithouse rat ... or we're insecure and completely lacking in self confidence. Not a very positive answer, eh? This may get a little long ... but, then again, when are my posts short? Here are some of the suggestions from the website:

    School
    To dream that you are in school, signifies feelings of inadequacy and childhood insecurities that have never been resolved. It may relate to anxieties about performance and abilities. You may also be going through a "spiritual learning" experience. If you are still in school and dream about school, then it will naturally serve as a backdrop to your dream world. Alternatively, a dream that takes place in school may be a metaphor for the lessons that you are learning from your waking life.

    High School
    To dream about high school, refers to the bounds and friendships that you made while you were in high school. What spiritual lessons have you learned? The dream may also be telling you that you need to start preparing for the real world.

    To dream that you have to repeat high school, suggests that you are doubting your accomplishments and the goals that you have already completed. You feel that you may not be measuring up to the expectation of others. The dream may occur because some recent situation may have awakened old anxieties and insecurities.

    Class
    To dream that you forgot to attend a class you signed up for, indicates your anxieties and fear of failing. You may also be lacking self-confidence in your ability to handle new responsibilities or projects.

    Lost
    To dream that you are lost, suggests that you have lost your direction in life or that you have lost sight of your goals. You may be feeling worried and insecure about the path you are taking in life. Alternatively, you may be trying to adjust and get accustomed to a new situation in which the rules and conditions are ever changing.

    Late
    To dream that you are late, denotes your fear of change and your ambivalence about seizing an opportunity. You may feel unready, unworthy, or unsupported in your current circumstances. Additionally, you may be overwhelmed or conflicted with decisions about your future.

    Honestly, this last interpretation does make some sense when I fit it into my current situation.

    I recently got a promotion to a new job ... and I agreed to go back into "probation" mode for one year during my initial training. Keep in mind that I've worked here for 13 years ... so putting myself back on probation for a new job was more than a little daunting.

    In any case ... "You may feel unready, unworthy, or unsupported in your current circumstances" ... that kind of fits since I really do feel overwhelmed in my new position sometimes ... but honestly, it doesn't explain why I've had the dream off and on for years.

    I'm like you, Cara ... I graduated back in the 80's and I don't focus on that time in my life. So why we dream about that particular issue ... I still don't have a clue.

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