I guess I'll swallow my pride and admit it. When I read that the State Journal-Register had started their own local blogroll, I wanted to be included. Then when I noticed that 11th Hour was one of the first to be listed, I did feel a tiny bit jealous.
But after I logged in this morning and learned that JP's request to be included has been turned down ... or at the very least ignored ... my hopes and aspirations were crushed.
I mean, common ... if JP can't make it onto the SJ-R blogroll, what chance in hell do I have? Blevin feels just as hopeless as I do ... and he curses a lot less than me. And while Palmer is making valid political points ... what am I doing? Making fun of a Lincoln monument.
I considered writing a week's worth of posts that were so clean they'd squeak ... something civic minded and uber-political ... something that might appeal to the powers that be at the SJ-R. But then ... isn't that crux of the whole hot topic?
If I start censoring myself just to be included in this blogroll (or anything else), then I've lost the whole reason to have a blog in the first place ... raw self-expression. If I've had a bad day and want to include the word fuck 14 times in a three paragraph post ... then I want not only to be able to do it ... but to feel comfortable doing it.
All that aside, I'm still a little jealous of Dave ... not just because he's on the blogroll ... but also because he's independent and I'm confident he'll still write whatever he feels like and let the chips fall where they may. I'm just not that confident about me ...
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no I've said too much
I haven't said enough
REM - Losing My Religion
TW,
ReplyDeleteHave you asked to be put on the SJ-R's blog roll? That's all I did. In fact, I think they require that you ask to be put on.
If I had been rejected by the SJ-R, I would have assumed it was beacuse of my my potty mouth and moved on. I'm not changing for the sake of a blog roll.
No, I haven't asked ... for the same reason you mentioned, my potty mouth. I suppose I can just throw it out there ... and they'll either say yes or no.
ReplyDeleteI never thought you'd change just because you were on someone's blogroll ... that never crossed my mind.
I just noticed that my thought process switched gears ... along the lines of, "Wow, wonder if I wrote something about local politics if they'd accept me."
I guess we'll try an experiment ... I'll send a message to SJ-R this morning. We'll see if they accept me ... profanity and all.
But I was also being honest ...
ReplyDeleteI really did think ... "Man, TEH is on there ... how cool is that? Aw, man ... I wanna be on there." Haha
That little green monster is an evil bitch ...
Looks like you're in. I just checked the roll, and you're on it. Nice work Thirty. I definitely think you deserve a place on the list.
ReplyDeleteAw, thanks, John ... I was pretty amazed. :)
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