Thursday, February 25, 2016


So you come to this point where you have to make a decision.  Dialysis is inevitable.  It's all a matter of when ... and weighing quality of life versus the inconvenience of treatment.   If we didn't have a trip planned, I'd sign up right now.  The fatigue is overwhelming ... the nausea comes and goes so much.  It's disheartening.

So you wonder ... is it better to go ahead and start treatment ... and feel better for the trip?   Weighing that against the fact you'll have to take the machine with you ... and have the fluid shipped to the hotel ahead of time.  I'm not an outdoors person but I would like to have the option of sitting on a beach ... and I don't know if that's something I can do with a PD port?

I'm a stubborn person ... and I've always felt I can push through almost anything.  But the last few days have been hard ... and so I wonder if it's time.

I really don't want it to be time.  If I could just have three more months? 

That doesn't seem like a lot to ask ...

Tonight I'm gonna have myself
A real good time
I feel alive
And the world
Is turning inside out Yeah!
I'm floating around in ecstasy
So don't stop me now
Don't stop me
'Cause I'm having a good time
Having a good time

Queen - Don't Stop Me Now

1 comment:

  1. a friend of mine is in dialysis three times a week, and she goes to the beach all the time. she has one of those things in her arm, too (sorry; i don't know the names of stuff). talk to someone and do what you need to do in order to get the most out of that vacation! -- scrivener (blogger doesn't let me use my handle anymore, blast it)